Listen

Yeah, since I've finally realized (which is too late, I think) that my aim in life after all is to be in the Sound Department, despite the fact that I have no background in music.

Even though all I can do is listen, I don't think it's enough to land me a job in my desired department. There aren't a lot of openings for that position. Or if there are, majority is in a different country. And that, I'm not a very good listener...I tend to just enjoy it than to study it....
It's not really much that one only has listening skills...there are a lot of others who can do it and HAS musical background...

I plan on taking up music lessons (piano) as soon as I get a job, but yeah....I'm on the gloomy side right now. My morale and optimism is on the red and I don't know how to pull it up again.

The only thing that's keeping me sane and stop from breaking down is the hope of someday, I can work with the people from the Skywalker Sounds....

（ ´,_ゝ`) ~sigh


What a gloomy day....

Engelen

Haha, I think I just lied about putting up my Delusional Diary....
I mean, I'm too lazy to do it right now so I'll postpone that project, while collecting a lot of delusional stories.

Anyways, here's a concept art for my PROJECT.ENGELEN

Engelen

Tired

I know I shouldn't put in personal problems online, but for some reason I need to get it off my head....
I don't have anyone to talk to anyway....

It's just that, I'm tired of being told what to do in my life.
Throughout the 20 years I've been living, they all dictated what I should do.
The only time I got away with that is when I got into the course that I wanted so much. But I wasn't able to escape for long, because they started making paths yet again for me.
And because of that, I've lost all passion and ambitions, though there is still enough for me to continue on.......

Sorry if it's kind of depressing......>.> I'll put up my Delusional Diary up soon...