A Tiny Star That Cannot Shine

Juggernaut, or Nau as he preferred to be called, gazed out of the window of the cold manse where he stays. Silence filled the entire cold place. Nau sighed forlornly, turning his head towards his silent companion who sits at the far end of the room. He approached her slowly, the heels of his shoes clicking on the marble floor. His eyes, filled with sadness and despair, are fixed on his guest. The sad curve of his mouth shows how much he is trying to hold back his tears.

"You who have always shone so brightly," he thought as he reached out to touch his guest's face. "Like the rising sun, like the brightest star in the galaxy, have lost all light and joy. Your smile which is gentle and kind, that brings joy to anyone who see it, is now lost and have been replaced by a cold and sad expression."

Nau sighed as he knelt down in front of his guest. "My Queen..." he almost sobbed, laying his head down on her lap like a child would. He reached out to hold her hand, all the while still trying not to let his emotions get to him.

"You who have given everything that makes you whole..." Nau whispered sadly. "You who had always have a big warm heart that accepts anyone despite of their flaws, whose warm laughters and gentle wit makes anyone at ease is now cold to the touch, lifeless and devoid of any laughter or smile."

Nau closed his eyes, sifting through the Queen's memories which he peculiarly shares. "You who always take delight in holding your King's hand, even if you are not talking of anything significant...You who always smile despite of wanting to cry just to make your King feel relieve that you are okay...Despite of being left behind in this cold place, you still reach out your hand and yearn to be able to hold your King's hand..."


Nau fitted his hand to the Queen's and held on to it tightly as he brought it close to his eyes which are brimming with unshed tears.

"Just how much of a big heart do you have, even if you don't show it to everyone around you?" he asked quietly. "You who always want to help people in your silent ways...Doing everything you can silently on your own for your family, even when you want to give up and just cry when misunderstood by everyone around you...How come you are not tired by it?"

A cold wind gently blew into the room and Nau slowly lifted his head to get his bearings back. "The winds are getting colder...I will not permit it to make you ill." Nau said as he got up and went over to the window. He closed the window and pulled the sheer curtains close. He turned to look back at the passive Queen, seeing her memories in his mind yet again.

"You have always sought comfort and warmth in the Princess's company whenever the King is not around." Nau said, going back to his place in front of the Queen, kneeling in front of her and taking both of her hands in his as he looked into her dark, vacant eyes. "For how long do I have to wait to see you smile and hear your laugh? To see the light in your eyes as you shine brightly again? For how long do I have to see you like this, reduced to a tiny star that has forgotten to twinkle?"

Nau heard a door close and he turned his head towards it, standing in front of the Queen, his weapon in his hand.

"But no matter how long I have to wait, I will protect you." Nau thought, straining his eyes and ears for the intruder. "Until then, I will be the one who'll wipe your tears and comfort you when you need it the most. I will wait until I see your gentle smile and hear you laugh from your heart, for the coldness to be dispersed from your heart which is locked..."


He was ready to attack the intruder that reached their chamber, only to get a whiff of the familiar scent of the Cheshire Cat.

"I've been wondering why you've been so quiet all these time." the Cat said conversationally. "The people of Wonderland seems getting complacent because you've holed up once again with the Queen they're desperate to see and be with again."

Nau harrumphed. "Getting complacent because I am no longer lashing out whenever My Queen is despairing and in need to grasp what is left of her joyful self? Them, who are content in this Wonderland that My Queen did not really want to turn out like this?"

The Cheshire Cat sat down at the Queen's feet, looking at the angry Juggernaut. "I'm getting pretty jealous for you keep calling the Queen as yours. She is also My Queen, you know, for you and I are one." he said, bemused. "The first Irregulars in Wonderland, who keeps the Queen company."

Nau rolled his eyes. "You prefer to dally with the Originals."

"But it is Her Majesty's wishes." The Cat said flippantly. "Isn't that what the Cheshire Cat's role in all of those stories they tell? That the Cheshire Cat is neutral, ridiculous and the voice of the story? Our Alice is really lost on what to do so I'm just trying to...'help', if you want to call it that. Plus, it's fun needling the Twins."

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Ah, so many mistakes in the drawings because of instability.

But I like experimenting on the clothes, since it's been a long time I drew such stuff...